John Terry, captain of Chelsea, fears that he will be “haunted forever” by his fatal miskick in the penalty shoot-out of the Champions League final against Manchester United. The English inter¬national defender apologised for his miss in a letter published on the club’s website and took responsibility for the unfortunate defeat (6-5 on pen¬alties) in the final. “I am so sorry for missing the penalty and denying you the fans, my team-mates, family and friends the chance to become European Champions,” wrote Terry. He said he had only slept a few hours in the days after his miss, and woke up every time hoping it had all been a bad dream. The 27-year-old has been given lots of sup¬port by fans, but it has not been easy for him to shake off his disappointment: “That night in Moscow will haunt me forever and I feel I have let everybody down and this hurts me more than any¬thing. I am not ashamed about crying.” Terry, the fifth Chelsea penalty-taker in the shoot-out against Manchester United – the match finished 1-1 after 120 minutes – had only to convert his spot-kick in order to secure the “Blues” their first Champions League title. However, the defender slipped on the wet pitch and hit the post. Shortly af¬ter, in sudden death, team-mate Nicolas Anelka’s effort was saved by United goalkeeper Edwin van der Sar.